Friends

Every time I think I'm not good enough, I remind myself it's not that I'm not good enough, it's just that I don't want to be the reasons for anyone's disappointment. I've seen more in life than I've cared to. I once lived in fantasy and didn't want to leave. You've shown me dreams can come true. But all it feels like I've shown you is fantasy is not all what it is.

People will pretend to be your friend. Friends will think they know what's the best for you. Friends will tell you how to live your life.

I've lived through all of that and more.

People who I thought were my friend told me what they would do. So I did it. When it was their turn, they did the exact opposite.

I know people give better advice and don't always take their own. But when they ask you for yours and you said you did what they had said, they come back with, "Yeah, that didn't work out too well for you."

No shit!

People will act like your friend only to keep you around for when it's convenient for them. They don't care what makes you happy. If you're not there when they need you, the remove the part that's interfering with how they live.

Real friends won't hinder what makes you happy. Who cares what they think? Unless it's something major, but someone dated their friend and it didn't work out - I wouldn't call that major. A person who got a speeding ticket. Oh, please. Who hasn't gotten one of those?

I've seen friends get hurt over those they call a "friend".

I life by simple rules. If you haven't given me a reason to trust you, I'm not calling you a friend. If I've known you less than 5 years, most likely you're not in my circle. There are very few I have known for less than five years that are in my circle. Our friendship has been through the ringer and it's still there.

If we can scream at one another and be able to have a drink at the end of the day, you're one of my friends.
If we can not talk for days and when we hear from one another is to see how we're doing and nothing more, you're one of my friends.
If you can talk to me without belittling the guy I'm dating, you're one of my friends.
If you can get a long with my friends, (all of them), you're one of my friends.
If we can be blatantly honest with one another, no matter how much the truth hurts, and still be able to see both sides, you're one of my friends.

If the only time I hear from you is when you need a pity party, you've already been blocked.
If the only time I hear from your mouth is something negative, you've already been ignored.
If the only time you come around is when you need something, I'm not around.

People will know I have no qualms with removing users, abusers, and idiots from my life. Without hesitation. Without second thought.

You are not a friend when you lay a guilt trip saying how I never see you. Get off your ass and come see me.
You are not a friend if I don't hear from you for months, I get a boyfriend and then you turn all righteous. Where have you been for the last few months? So, no, I haven't hung out with you because of my boyfriend, (considering we've only dated for less than a month), I haven't hung out with you in the past six months because I always had to go and see you.
You are not a friend every time you text me and it's to belittle my boyfriend. That's nice he dated your friend. Your friend's a complete jerk. She didn't realize or how to treat a guy. Her loss. Tell her to stop trash talking and get a life of her own.
You are not a friend if you try to use reverse psychology. Not gonna work sweetheart. I aced the test and now hold the degree.

Sorry, the truth does hurt. When you meant for your friend to see me as a bitch, but it backfired. You've shown him that you're nothing but a two timing user.

I don't care about the great times we had as friends. That's in the past. Yes, you may have been there, but if you can't continue to be there, then I don't need you. Friends don't treat friends like dirt.

If I wanted drama, I would allow more people in my life. That's why I have a small circle of friends. I don't want drama and I don't want yours.

I'm not stupid. If the only time you ask me questions, I know you've been talking to a particular person.
I'm not stupid. Don't tell me that they're your best friend if they treat you like shit. Then I know that's how you're going to treat me.
I'm not stupid. I don't care what your problem is. Stop sucking off of it.

I'm tired of people putting their problems and pressures on me. It's simple once I figure it out. I delete the issue from my life. If it happens to be a "friend" so be it. They don't even notice when I'm not there until they need something.

I'm not here to make your life easier. But I do want to say thank you for making me wiser.

Never tell anyone the way they're living their life is wrong. Maybe it works for them. My life may not be fabulous. But it works for me. It may not be the way you could ever life, but it works for me. I would not have learned without the roads I have taken. I would not be where I am without the struggles.

I learned a lot this summer. Sadly, I've learned that no matter how great of a story teller you may be, there's always a lie hidden behind the truth.

Throughout life, I will continue to lose friends. I will continue to gain friends. That's life. Life's not fair and it's not easy.

Freeloaders

Over the last few weeks I learned a lot. I learned if you don't bend over far enough, people will help push you. I also learned that people don't think you're serious until you completely lose it.

Those aren't friends. Those are users and abusers.

I've also learned a lot about myself. Not to mention I learned a lot from others. If I have to defend myself, it's not worth the friendship. If you have to argue with why things are the way they are in your world, it simply means that they are trying to change your point of view to see theirs. And by doing so, it means they want something.

Relationships are the same way. If your significant other is defending someone other than you, run. Do you think they're defending you against others? Yeah, probably not.

So here are some simple rules to my life... (they may change as need be)...

1. It's my life, not yours.
2. Argue with me, I'll close the door.
3. If you need something, get off your ass and get it yourself. I'm not your bitch.
4. If you're always too busy when I need to talk to you (and I mean *always*) then don't worry about me answering my phone when you need me.
5. If I need to vent and I come to you, I trust you. Don't make me regret it.
6. If you get pissed off at me, and then I get pissed at you for doing the same thing you got pissed off at me about, go fuck yourself.
7. My brain does not function properly when it's agitated. Let it calm down.
8. If you defend anyone other than me, against me, that's not cool.
9. Don't like my rules? Think they're unfair? It's my life, not yours.
10. I don't fight for attention when I'm trying to talk to you on the phone. Call me back when you're free.
11. You have to let me go for no reason, that's fine. I'll go lean on someone else and I'll be okay to where I don't want to repeat the story.
12. It's my life, not yours.
13. I don't give second chances.
14. You get one chance.
15. I know we may not see eye to eye. That's okay. I still love you.
16. You value my opinion and I'll value yours.
17. It's my life, not yours.
18. I pay my own bills.
19. You need a ride, rule 1, gas money.
20. You need to borrow something, rule 1, where's the collateral?

Okay, I feel better.